Somebody should stop me from drinking. People just watch me go… That is the problem when meowy‘s not with me when drinking, I get very loud. I always say, di na ako iinom per patuloy ko pa ring ginagawa. I think I need to drink only with friends and with VERY strict supervision. I always hope I don’t turn people off. I have a strong personality when I am drunk. Friends used to tell me that my personality shifts when I am drinking.
I woke up at 12 noon and threw out bile, then slept again til 3:30.
I feel better now, there’s a lot of food at home, my aunt who came from Hong Kong whipped a lot of good food. My favorite is X.O., I don’t know how it is spelled but I am writing it as how they pronounce it. It’s a spicy concoction of scallop shreds and shrimp in oil. I love it. But today, I am not in the mood to eat. Just ate biko (my parents bought it for my uncle) and a couple spoonfuls of lengua and a piece of fried chicken. Very unhealthy indeed.
There are times I feel like I am deluding myself. I sometimes question the things that I do.
I feel really sad, I don’t know why. I need someone to talk to. I tried calling Meowy but she isn’t answering her phone. Maybe she’s asleep (or angry). I blame this awful hangover for this bout of melancholy.
I don’t know how this writing gig will turn out. I am just trying. I think one reason I never really did much in life is because I was always fearful of inadequacy, of not being good enough. In life, we sometimes need to take risks to prove something to ourselves. I wish I can be good at this, if I am, I will go study again. Ayoko mabulok sa call center and I have no passion for business (which is the course I took in college).
I am rambling again. I am trying to do other things. Ayoko maging alipin ng trabaho na umuuwi para matulog lamang. I try hard to do more things, read as much as I could, not be dragged down by this depressing world we live in.
I think this blog has been depressing lately. I will only write another post when I am back in happy spirits again.
Just as I am typing, Meowy sent me a message. She was at work. I love her so much and not many people understand the things that we share. It’s just that being in opposite ends of the metropolis and conflicting schedule makes it hard to spend time together.
Sana May 7 na! Magkakaroon ako ng Vacation Leave Bonanza!
he he he…..pareho din naman tayu pag lasing…ika nga nila, people when drunk are the honest people……..okey lang yan…someday you , you will find the world you want to live in a very unusual and unexpected way…..
namiss ko na tuloy magpakalasing..he he he
your header looks way better now. i feel melancholic lately too, pero kelangan kasi tayo magtrabaho