It’s Meow’s birthday.
It’s always nice to know that in this depressing world, she is always there to remind me not to lose my way. Our relationship had rough beginnings. And when I say rough, I mean it was weird. For someone like me, people probably wouldn’t believe it. I was on the way to become one of those people. Jaded people who temporarily escape their frustrations by doing superficial things to fill the void inside their being.
Life can be pretty meaningless. I’d tell myself, it is up to us to make it meaningful. Easier said than done, I can sometimes forget that. I am not immune to feeling that hollowness. I get lonely too. It’s not the world that is depressing, it’s the people in the world that is depressing… making life depressing.
I have that capacity to stray. I was 25, I have become anomic, numb, hopeless, jaded. I was about to accept that I have reached the end. Life ends here. I am doomed to o this all my life and I have no chance for happiness. I am not like many people and I should just accept that. I can be like them, I can drown my conscience in that hedonistic pool of sex and other vices. Why should I care? Nobody cares for me.
I was wrong.
Meow saved me. There are still good people in the world but they don’t get it. Meow did.
She’s a live breathing person unlike the great, understanding people on the net. I can touch her, I can hear her. I can still remember the scent of her old shampoo.
I could have been like them. I think I was about to.
Meow taught me that there are still things in life that we can do. It’s not easy but we can still pursue the things that we want. We need to work to have the means to live, but we don’t live to work. I remembered how it is to dream. I started to remember who I was again.
I am reminded that while man is weak, we have minds. We can think and we have a conscience regardless of our tenets.
I am afraid that I will stray. Man has a capacity to forget and lose himself. I am afraid of the day I become unworthy of her love.
She is my lighthouse, I was lost and she brought me home.
We may be apart, I know she’s there. When we’re together, I can breathe better and be myself.
Happy Birthday!
Meooww! So you love cat! They are friendly animal just like dogs!
hapi bertdey naman pala kay Meow…Ü
nicely written! this is cheesy jeeps, but all in the right places. ang swerte mo naman kung ganun kasi nahanap mo na ‘yung totoong kapareha mo. pakisabi kay cat, hapi bertdey. looking forward to the time na kayo na nga talaga ’till the end of time.
at cheesy na rin pala ‘tong litanya ko. haha!
i dunno if it’s just in me pero sa tuwing nakakabasa ako ng genuine “love” post tulad nito, it never fails to melt the cynicism in me.
at natawa ako dun sa unang comment. halatang di nagbasa. huhlolz!