New Year morning at Cubao is disgusting. Smog covers the city. It would have been picturesque if it was natural fog but it stenched of combustible powder. That was depressing.
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New Year 2010
Friday, January 1st, 2010Santa’s letters and decorating the place
Tuesday, December 1st, 2009I woke up. The birds are chirping, the sun is up and shining, and yes, there are always flowers in our very small garden. It could have been a wonderful day if not for the fact that I have work.
At work, because earnings season is over, there is very little to do. Many of us are helping out with the Christmas decorations yesterday. The theme for our department is Santa’s factory. They are making a big deal about it. There is a contest for it, and the Asians Equity department always win. Let’s face it, as creative as we Filipinos are, if pitted against a group comprising of Koreans, Chinese and Japanese, we stand a small chance (I think it’s a cultural thing) plus they earn a lot more money than we do (just think of their budget — big). But who knows, with the effort they are giving into it… Baka manalo kami.
Cat's Day
Saturday, September 19th, 2009It’s Meow’s birthday.
It’s always nice to know that in this depressing world, she is always there to remind me not to lose my way. Our relationship had rough beginnings. And when I say rough, I mean it was weird. For someone like me, people probably wouldn’t believe it. I was on the way to become one of those people. Jaded people who temporarily escape their frustrations by doing superficial things to fill the void inside their being.
Life can be pretty meaningless. I’d tell myself, it is up to us to make it meaningful. Easier said than done, I can sometimes forget that. I am not immune to feeling that hollowness. I get lonely too. It’s not the world that is depressing, it’s the people in the world that is depressing… making life depressing.
Mood shift courtesy of the random lady
Thursday, August 13th, 2009Got home. I finally completed my clearance at my previous company and then walked to Greenbelt 3 for the Visuals with Vision mini-exhibit organized by the people behind YoCards. A photograph of Maki, my old dog (I still miss him) was on display. Meow was right, I should learn to stand by my work. I just sent the picture with a one-liner email without a title and not much information about the picture and why I think it is relevant to the theme of the contest. I think I can stand by my work, I can be very defensive but you have to ask me first.
Oops! They did ask me, I didn’t reply, just too lazy. I take that back. I can, just need to be forced to defend my work.
I could not wait for the program to start, so I left before the announcement of winners. I don’t think I will win anyway. There are better pictures there by more deserving artists. I was there for two hours. Patience is a virtue I don’t possess. It’s already unlike me to stay alone for that long without sitting.
In hazes of week's end
Monday, January 5th, 2009I just woke up.
Monday morning, I have work again tonight. I was planning to dedicate most of my week off to Susanna Clarke (her book has been with me for a month and I am unable to have time to filp through its pages).
Last Saturday, I was drinking with some co-workers, I guess I was a bit sad and I ended up drinking more than I should… got very loud, my digestive system went through some really bad calisthenics and I ended up whining like a sissy on my cellphone. Ah, yes… a day I wish to wipe out from everybody’s consciousness (much like most of my life).
Christmas Boredom Delight!
Wednesday, December 24th, 2008I am at home right now… 5 hours to go before Christmas. I think most agnostics care for Christmas no matter what they say… not for the symbolism but rather for the same reasons as most Christians do. It’s a holiday that most people take a break and spend time with their family. I spend it with my family but I take more pleasure from being able to be alone.
The past two years was spent at work. Birthday ko na rin sa 27th at nung nakaraan na taon I spent it at work. It is pleasant to have it different this time.
Nung na-approve yung leaves ko, may nag-isip kung di ba pathetic. Sabi ko kasi excited na ako magkulong sa bahay! Yeah, I intend to lock myself at home: Browse the Internet, watch TV, read books, make drawings and eat.
You have to understand that 2007 was a weird year, I thought of myself as a boring person but in retrospect, it was an oddly intense year of alcoholism and other stuff not suitable for younger people. It is a path that I don’t think I will tread again. And I think I am glad. I think in life we should never make regrets, just learn from our mistakes. But I still think it is OK to drink once in a while. Di lang dapat araw-arawin. 2008 is great, it is pleasantly boring and except for me resigning from work and being in a relationship, but it is otherwise uneventful.
Boring is good. Boring is what I want to be right now. I guess it’s great to be solitary again and opening your door only to the people you want it to be open to. There are a lot of good friends that I have neglected and I wish I can bake amends for that.
Merry Christmas everybody!
Ruminations
Thursday, December 11th, 2008Whenever I close my eyes, images flash in my eyes… most often just faint red patterns of geometric form turning scarlet during emotional distress, sometimes I see flashes of memories or pastel paintings, images and even frescoes. Sometimes I see watercolor art of butterflies and it will zoom close and I’ll see the intricate design of her wings, sometimes of Renaissance art and be awed by its grandeur. Sometimes memories of things so vivid and sometimes of those forgotten, I can almost feel the sensation. Of a girl in bed and her mocha skin beneath the sheets and the strands of hair. I see images of wizards, fairies and unicorns, landscapes of places I have seen or never visited or maybe just products of my imagination.
Di ba parang adik lang?
The day Manny won. I woke up at 2. I thought I cared but I didn’t, di naman gaganda ang ekonomiya ng Pilipinas, ano man ang mangyari sa laban nila ni Dela Hoya. I woke up and got up to Church with my girlfriend (it was her idea), it was like strolling in a museum, we observed the architecture and the Interiors. It has been years since I paid our Church a visit. Since being agnostic, I don’t go to Sunday mass anymore but it was nice visiting.
New year Post
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008Happy New Year sa Inyo. Ayan nasabi ko na! Pasensiya na, di ako big fan ng Holidays kahit OK naman yung naging holidays para sa akin.
This year balak ko paunlarin ang sarili ko kasi the past year, parang naging milestones lang ng buhay ko ay (a) learning I can drink 12 hours straight; (b) Half-sex; (c) weird sex; and (d) Getting really drunk and not knowing what happened in between waking up. Naging patapon pala ang buhay ko ng 2007. So this year, I will try to go online more often and do the things that I have been doing before like… wala pala akong ginagawa masyado dati, I take that back. This year I intend to resign from work. Find myself (pag nakita nyo, sabihin nyo sa akin agad) and probably write more (I used to write mediocre poems and sell essays to classmates when I was in college).
It all ended with a cow in the gutter
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006Since starting a journal, I suddenly don’t feel like blogging much. I am really bored right now, so here I am.
Lot of rains yesterday. Hardly had any sleep. After work, I got only 3 hours of sleep then I had to go to school and prepare for my report. Everything was uneventful. The report was ok. And I had to go home early, I badly needed to catch some sleep.
I think after the horrendous ride last Thursday (Thanks to typhoon Milenyo), nothing would top that. This one did, and it’s just a few hours rain! So, after school, I spoke with my college dean then went directly home. I hate 6PM rush hour. I had to wait for an hour in a line for an FX ride. Then, heavy traffic. The rains made it much longer. The bad side of studying in the National Capital Region (and you live in Antipolo). Traffic.
By the time we’re in Taytay (already in the vehicle for 1 and a half hour), there’s flood. It’s quite typical in the area to have floods and this is not the first time I’ve been through this with downpours. Malakas ang loob ng FX driver, sugod pa rin sya kahit hanggang lagpas tuhod ang baha. From Junction to Brookside…. I am always worried when they do this and they’ll be stalled in the middle (di nyo ko mapapalabas sa FX at mapapasuong sa baha, magka-leptospirosis pa ako). So, I was happy when we went through. I always like it when drivers do that. So further along the highway, we went for it again. Mas malalim na baha! I tend to hold my breath when they do that. It’s almost fun. I even saw one of my classmates walking in the flood. So when we went past that. I was happy. I love my town of Antipolo. At least, di bumabaha doon. Or so I think I did.
Our ride was all of a sudden quick and smooth, since there were hardly any cars in the road by that time. If you’re familiar of our place, binaha yung Ynarez Center! How? May baka na inanod sa estero (yes, a cow, a big cow). So, that is what I gathered from the crowd. We were this close! I was by this time inside the FX for like 4 hours (masakit at mainit na ang puwet ko). So out we go, at sumakay ako ng jeep na malakas ang loob na sumuong sa baha.
Ang galing nga, di nila ako siningil (siguro dahil suot ko ang school uniform ko). There’s good people out there after all. Hehehe.. I feel sorry for the cow. He must have been just there grazing somewhere… then again, how did he got there in the first place? May nakita pang sawa along the area. It’s crazy. After that I needed to smoke. And I had a sudden craving for hamburger (guess I’m not really that sorry for the cow). Sarado na yung pinakamalapit na McDo.
I left school at around 6:30, got home at around midnight. Parang nagpunta ako sa probinsya.
High School Reunion
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005Last month, we had our first High School Reunion. I thought a lot would go so, I went. Turned out that the turnout was small, aint even 25%
It was cute although, i didnt get to see those I really want to see. Pero OK lang. Har!
Thank God! There’s beer.