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Oftentimes feminine scary stuff

jeeper — Sat, 03 Jul 2010 12:51:11 +0000

I am subscribed to the newsletter of Every Day Fiction. So far, most of the stories there are quite good. I hardly get disappointed. I get to have some some SciFi, sometimes, fantasy, even the mundane stuff that strikes a chord, some writers have a good CV based on their tagline, and yes, they are mostly unknown writers who can write really well.

Flash fiction, I am beginning to be addicted to it. I’d wait for something to come up on my inbox (subscribed to it using my work email), one everyday, normally coming in at about the afternoon. When I have idle time, I wait, and sometimes I’d read it before doing anything at work in the morning if I haven’t read it the day earlier.

Sometimes, a bit often, there are stories that I have grown to both love and hate. These are stories written by women. You have no doubt in your mind they are women. Women can write stuff about lives of women that men almost impossibly can’t. Stories about a woman’s life, and the capacity for love and hatred. It’s scary. Women can sometimes be scary.

I have many female friends, they are fun to be with, but I know that deep inside they have a capacity to do something. Something scary. I think it’s something inside them, maybe something in the DNA that men ever got. I remember reading a Murakami book where women have this black thing inside their bodies that make them melancholic, that when taken away makes them feel better, until it grows again.

Maybe it’s just me who thinks there is, but if people are writing about it, and some of them, women as well, maybe there really is.

A woman can love intensely and self-sacrifice. Most women, deep inside, think they are better than men, and women when scorned has the capacity to self-destruct and plot to get even at all costs, to the point of losing everything.

Yeah. But I hope I get to read something nicer tomorrow.

Facebook Sabbatical

jeeper — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 22:03:02 +0000

This Facebook Sabbatical made me go back to my neglected online activities like blogging, twitting (or is it twitter-ing?), and so on. The reason behind the FB boycott is a long story.

My online life was never the same after college. Maybe because I did not have much of a social life, just always waiting for the next birthday so that I can find a reason to get drunk.

Like I was browsing through Pinoy Exchange, and I was thinking, they are annoying. I never considered myself (maybe a little) a good debater but recent arguments on my former favorite threads are insipid and lame. Where have all the great PExers gone? Maybe I outgrew it and heard most of the arguments.I was grossed out.

I think I will be lurking in Mukamo, that seems to remain unexploited.

The problem with the Internet these days is that it so darn accessible that anybody can use it. The ones that are annoying (maybe like myself) are loitering around like a cancer making everything in their path as gangrenous as they are.

I guess I really have mellowed down, and I hardly blog as much as I used to… boring. I think my blog is pretty much like that too… boring! I feel uninspired by life and all that’s left is this jaded man with nothing to do but complain (like what I am doing now).

Kontento na ako sa mga blog na binabasa ko ngayon or online magazines.

There’s this irregular blogger who commented here one time, and as I looked at his profile. All his registered blogs are nonsense. I don’t mean nonsense-bad grammar but nonsense-incoherent that is irritating and please-torture-me content similar to Barney the Purple Dinosaur minus the sensibility. Either he is a foreigner in a non-speaking English country or a four-year old with easy access to a computer.

Every time I open Friendster, I am aghast by what I see. Just recently I open it up and with Friendster’s new homepage that seems a lot like FB now, I see disgusting people who unfortunately are people I know. People who I am not friends with but people I knew. Now because of the disgusting pictures they have in their underwear…. DELETE! People who add people in their underwear… DELETE! So it normally becomes me logging in to delete people that are gross. What is it about people posing in their underwear? and how did I ever get to know exhibitionists with poor taste in photography? and I remember that I am bad at declining people I meet who wants to be friendsters with me. I really don’t think they posed in their underwear when I added them up, they were actually fairly decent then.

Now that I am back at FB, I logged in after much drama. I also got tired of relentlessly checking updates from people, save for a few.

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By the way, not that it is of any interest, I bought TH White’s The Once and Future King. I also downloaded some ebooks. I want to read books again. Lately, I feel stupid. That’s one of my goals. I think I will not call it a New Year’s Resolution. Resolutions provide ridiculous pressure that makes it fun to break like being healthy.. that’s a resolution that I have, that apparently, I am not following but I really want. I think I broke the resolution in less than a day. I think I forgot I had a resolution.

another been doing this-and-that post

jeeper — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 10:58:28 +0000

We tried playing literati a few nights ago.

Pansin nyo napaka-chatty ko sa YM. Hehehe.

Anyway, it was fun. It’s like scrabble. Unfortunately, I lost.

“EMO” is not a word it says. So does OLA, EVAL and LE. I can’t get away with it. We could always blame it on the letters. It’s always the letters. If you are given vowels A’s, I’s, O’s and U’s and just the letter V as the consonant. You use your final V, and get the another U. Haay, I always preferred Es.

She’s quite good at it because she reads more books than I do, and she topped her Scrabble class in college (yes, it’s something you can choose as an elective, apparently).

I plan to clean up the short story I am writing. I think it’s good (maybe because I wrote it). It’s about a dog and a girl and a cat and demons that walk the Earth and take lives through a diabolic bargain.

I was intending to write something about Pacquiao or New Moon but then decided I am so sick of both of them, it’s not even funny anymore.

We have only one day off. Spent it browsing the Internet only to realize nothing that interest me.

I watched 500 Days of Summer. A DVD that my sister has, I’ve heard but really no interested in seeing. It was quite nice, I’d say, but nothing that made me swoon.

I am still reading Uncle Petros and Goldbach’s Conjecture. It’s a good book, I am almost done. Found a nice quote there. why be a mediocre professional when you can bask in being an exceptional amateur [at chess] . It goes someway like that. I’ll finish it tomorrow.

I am bored. I tried to read blogs but I am so lazy. I know someday I need to toil to make something of myself but let me take this moment while it still lasts.

Who reads this blog anyway? Jeez! This is the type of posts in blogs I hate.

Facebook and Friendster teaches us

jeeper — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 22:54:22 +0000

I always hear people these days go: Friendster, yuck! or Friendster Baduy!

For years, Friendster has been the number one social networking website in the country. Myspace was not able to topple it, Multiply threatened it. But Filipinos just love Friendster…. until now.

So enters Facebook. More interesting, interactive and user-friendly. It is uncluttered. It has apps that you can use personally and you can play games. You can catch up with people you know. Classmates from so long ago can track you down so easily.

Now Friendster is forgotten, almost to the point if disgust. Friendster, that was soooo last year. Duh.

When Myspace and Multiply came out, Friendter competed by allowing personalizing the themes. Made things cluttered but it did work. Now what they doesn’t work.

That is how easily people can discard a habit (even a lifestyle) for something trendier. Sure, we can go for the innovation but do we have to feel aghast? Why are we so engrossed by the number of people using something better and be disgusted by something new?

Like Twilight,I think this tells us something.

Something about human nature. Sure, it’s Friendster. It doesn’t really qualify as tangible. But it was a part of our life before.

Someday it may go to the ranks of passe things in the Internet, the way how mIRC has been forgotten. But at least it’s still there.

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OK, sige wag seryosohin ang buhay!

A new post that's not so whiney

jeeper — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 23:46:52 +0000

I was thinking, if I am not an academic and I hate corporate life, what should I do with myself? Kung pwede lang maging professional bum? I think that will work for me. Having a stay-at-home job requires discipline, which I don’t possess anyway. I am best suited for the bohemian life. Too bad I am not talented enough to come up with a brilliant painting or book once a year and then sell it for a LOT of money to sustain my lifestyle, which is pretty lavish in terms of the useless stuff that my money goes to.

I have been complaining about how I am not doing well at training. As it turns out my 76% score in voice accuracy was high considering that they only ask for 50% on actual production. Ang problema, madaming magaling sa kasama ko sa training. Oh, well. Like I always say, take everything in stride, come what may. I will do my best not to be a whiner. I am embarrassed to admit this but I am a whiner.

It’s raining outside, I am in no mood to go to work. The consolation I have is not working on Monday because of the US holiday. Inisip ko kung simulan ko na ngayon ang long weekend. But that can’t be.

Some of my coworkers don’t like our trainer. I have no idea. Dapat nga lumabas sa sariling mundo, huli ako lagi.

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Facbook is making me sick now. I hate people tagging me in ridiculous posts, I hate it more when people are actually commenting in those ridiculous posts, and I hate it MORE when a LOT of people are commenting in those ridiculously stupid post. It makes me realize that there are a lot of people who are so — to make a comment on that post. And what I hate MOST are the notifications on my email bulking up in my email. Jeez! I have more messages coming in from those ridiculous posts than my spam folders.

I need to stop using Facebook. Last night, I had a dream. I stopped playing Crazy Planets (because I actually have better things to do now), and in my dream I was able to top the ranks by using a fire launcher (or whatever mechanism it is that blows lots of fire) on a numerous number of stupid robots.

Also had a dream about this popular girl from High School adding me as a friend. Now that was scary. With that said, I should minimize my Facebook usage.

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I wish I had a lot of money to eat McDonald’s. I miss burgers, sana sweldo na. There’s this sexy ad in Japan. I will eat plenty of McDonald’s and maybe I’d look like them.

Oh! You don’t get sexy for eating too much McDonald’s or do we? Ano kaya kung idemanda natin ang McDo for misleading advertisement? No! I am not stupid. Hahaha! After all, it’s in Japan (the models don’t look Asian). I wonder if the McDonalds attire would look good on me. Probably not. But I do like the socks.

My girlfriend's Facebook account

jeeper — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:41:39 +0000

Because my girlfriend has no Internet service at home, I got into the habit of opening her Facebook account (this is with her permission of course, di naman ako tulad ng iba dyan, I trust her). The Reason: Farmville.

I told myself that I will not get addicted to any of those apps after manakawan ako ng eggplants sa Barn Buddy na binura ko sa sarili kong account. But I am getting addicted. Level 10 na kami at andami naming pera! Yehey! I was really planning to make it look like a farm surrounded by a forest of trees (syempre mga fruit-bearing trees lang, gusto ko pa naman lagyan ng balete, weeping willow or cypress). She kinda likes it. Sabi nya organic farm kunwari ng mga small countryside farmers!

Syempre, magulo yung balak ko, di nakaayos. Pero para s akin, cute sya unlike yung mga super-arranged farms ng ibang tao.

Yun lang naman ang habol ko. Tapos, para ma-improve yung farm ko nagpapanggap ako na ako si Meow tapos nagse-send ako ng gifts sa mga friends nya para may mangyari sa farm namin.

Dapat siguro gumawa na rin ako ng farm ko sa sarili kong account pero naisip ko, ayoko mag-flood ng kung anu-ano sa wall ko. Kaya sa girlfriend ko na lang.

At dahil binubuksan ko yung account nya, and let me reiterate na with permission, at HINDI dahil binabantayan ko ang kanyang online activity (and I am not getting defensive because I think some people have issues with privacy), nakikita ko rin yung aktibidades ng kanyang friends.

Geez. She has this gay friend she is really close with and she has his boyfriend as a Friend as well. I don’t think they are together anymore. di kasi ako bulag at nakikita ko kasi pag binubuksan ko yung account nila sa Homepage. Hahaha! Nagmumukha akong chismoso! Feeling ko mas marami akong alam ngayon sa mga nangyayari sa mga kaibigan nya. Like them for example, naisip nila na mag-break. Medyo malabo pero parang may third party but I don’t want to speculate. Syempre di ako magtatanong di ba? Tapos parang love-hate sila sa Facebook… nakakatawa pero minsan di ko alam kung maiinis ako o maawa sa dinidisplay nila na emoness.

Tapos, parang nakikilala ko na yung mga friends niya. Minsan parang feeling friends ko na sila kasi I am getting to know them really well from the updates they are posting.

I really should stop opening her account. Pero kailangan ko kasi mag-harvest. Ang ganda na kasi ng farm namin. May vegetables, trees and cute farm animals. Hehehe.

Sleeping, the Watchmen and Facebook

jeeper — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 15:05:36 +0000

I wish I could go on living without sleep. There’s so many things I wish I could do but time deprives me of that. I like sleeping, it makes me escape reality but I wish I had more time to do stuff. I want to write, read, draw, listen to music, create a website and watch television and movies.

But that can’t happen now… sadly.

I told this to Meow and she told me I shouldn’t, I might end up like one of the Murakami characters from his short story Sleep (the only story in the book I lent her that she almost liked). I told her that, at least, I’d have beautiful skin despite the emotional withdrawal.

I have finally seen The Watchmen movie, I have been hearing rumors that it has been loyal to the comic book but disappointingly, it was not as loyal as I wanted it to be. Sure, the idea was there but no giant, genetically modified octopus-like creature in the end. Just some explosion of some sort. Maybe I was asking too much for something as ambitious as The Watchmen movie. I am over it now.

At least they were successful in humanizing Dr. Manhattan and I am not sure if that’s a good thing.

Facebook

I have been using Facebook a lot lately.

NOTE TO MYSELF: Delete friends I don’t like. They’ll still have Friendster.

I have been using the applications and I gotta say I enjoy taking those quizzes. And it works well for my Tumblr and Twitter account. Especially twitter, allows me to do synchronized status updates in one go.

And while on the topic Facebook, I really don’t like playing those social games like Mafia Wars, Farming stuff and such but on one occasion, I added the application Barn Buddy on facebook. Di ko na lang sya pinanapansin kasi sila ang naglalaro nyan (my friends, that is) at minsan sinilip ko sya. Tiningnan ko yung recent activities, may nagnakaw ng eggplant ko! And I called you frrriendssss?!?! Kahit virtual vegetable yan, ayoko ninanakawan ako. At dahil dyan binura ko yung app at naglaro na lang ako ng Magic Farm sa computer ko. At least walang nagnanakaw sa akin ng mga virtual veggies ko.

For some reason, I found the Friends for Sale application disturbing with posts going like:

I just bought Dominique as my newest pet on Friends For Sale.

$110,000, bargain!

Somebody needs to purify their minds… me, mainly.

Contract signed!

jeeper — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:51:46 +0000

I just signed my contract today for the new job as a voice writer/editor.

Don’t mind the picture, I was looking for a picture with a contract on it (my blog has been mostly text in months). Nagulat ako na isa ito sa mga lumabas. If you were thinking that’s a porn movie. Wrong! Akala ko rin. Hehehe.

It’s gonna be my last few days at work, I feeeeel soooo messed up. I wanted this job but I feel there’s something missing.

Maybe because Meow did not receive a call, we were imagining how it’s like to be wavemates/batchmates again just like old times. Or maybe I will miss my team. Or maybe I want more money (even if the offer was higher than my current salary).

I will leave my team. I do get along with them. I have grown a sick, fond tenderness for them and for all the emotional attachment and separation anxiety, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM! Mga Hayup! But I will get over it soon enough, I am sure.

Note to myself: Keep this blog a secret, so that I can badmouth people without any more reservations!

I was with a group of people that seem to be OK, I have a good feeling about them. I think many of them have some loose screws, I think we’ll get along then. There’s this mom there who kinda irritates me a little bit. Too talkative for me. But she seems nice. Not really that pretty. And you know what’s scary? The people I make fun of are the people I become friends with. Aaaaah!

I suddenly miss a friend, she really falls in that Hot Momma category, something I was unaware of for the longest time until somebody pointed that out to me. Talaga?! Well, I thought she is a bit too catty to be hot (pang-cougar pala ang dating, way too many cats in my lives for a dog person). She has always thought of me as a harmless little puppy and she gave me presents when I was working in our old company.

I look really nice. My last 2 ID pictures in my previous companies were awful (both had me looking like some lost and petrified aborigine dressed in modern garbs forced to smile at the camera). So when I learned that we’ll be bringing our own pictures, I had a haircut (something I do twice or thrice a year) and shaved (tamad kasi ako lagi mag-ahit) and dressed nice clothes (something that some people rarely see because my taste in clothes were never exactly fashionable). Now that’s done, I am back to my old distasteful self na di nag-aayos.

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I found this link, it’s beautiful. Beautigul Agony. It has different people in the throes of orgasm. It’s not porn but it sure is erotic based on the clip. I wish I could seeMakes me want to feel some agony myself. I wish I had a credit card. See the preview seems so sensual.

Around the web

jeeper — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 07:41:08 +0000

I was not able to go to work Friday, 2 AM because of the rain. It’s not that I am lazy… it was scary! The raindrops sounded like coins falling down the roof only replaced by the strong winds bringing sounds of falling debris. Isipin nyo naman ang byahe ko from Antipolo to Ayala, madilim at sa payat kong ito baka dalhin ako ng hangin na parang saranggola

I mentioned to my girlfriend that I am looking at books by Malcolm Gladwell from a comment I received recently. She knows the writer and talked about Blink. It’s funny that I have a geeky girlfriend, she knows almost all the writers I mention.Nag-download ako ng eBook, made me realize that my intuitive repulsion from a recent post is not as irrational as I thought it was.

Blogger’s block. Just look at these links.

I am still not done with watching Cowboy Bebop on DVD. I learned at wikipedia that Keanu Reeves will be signing up to portray the cool but laconic Spike in a movie, I think Reeves is too stiff to be the laidback Spike. I wanna grow hair like Spike’s but I’d probably look retarded.

I don’t like Twilight, I hate it and I think people will keep on raving about it for years to come until all the movies are shown. This has to be one of the funniest review I have read recently.

On the same comedy website, this one really shocked me… I don’t know the reliability of the sources but Martin Luther King? HG Wells? Among listed in 5 Great Men Who Built Their Careers on Plagiarism

I subscribed to a porn blog but after it crammed porn links and pictures on my feed, in just a day. I removed it. it just proves that I am still decent. LOLs.

When I was in college, when Pinoy Big Brother came out. People started calling me Franzen. I hated it. Sure, I am skinny, I have a similarly shaped head but I don’t see it. Or maybe I just hate being compared to a guy that I know will irritate me if I meet him in person. Yun ang mahirap pag maraming kamukha! Recently, they tell me I look like Trevor Ariza. That, at least, is more tolerable. Too bad, I don’t play basketball.

I just created an account at tumblr, I don’t really need it. And so does this blog and all my other accounts on social networking websites!

Files from the Briefcase

jeeper — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 08:47:48 +0000

There was a time in college that I make backups of my projects by having it uploaded in Yahoo briefcase. I did that for a semester.

I received an email a couple of weeks back about Yahoo briefcase closing. Kaya dinownload ko na yung mga files ko doon and I am reminded of how silly my projects were. I am not in the habit of making lengthy preparations for written reports. Puro rush.

May mga files mula ng second sem at summer ng third year ko noong college. Andoon yung research ko sa mga reports, projects, kaunting drafts pati mga files ng mga pinaagkitaan ko na essays for sale. And looking at it in retropect, I wonder how I get good grades on written reports.

Isa doon ang activity report ko sa OJT ko nung nasa JFC ako under sa Network Development Management. Yung una kong OJT sa isang BPO company, masaya kasi parang regular employee kami sa Human Resources pero yung pangalawa puro clerical work at ito ang mga nakalagay na tasks ko na pinaganda ko yung words. Letse! Kalokohan palang malaki yung activity report ko. Eto isang portion (copied and pasted):

DUTIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES

Data Encoding

Document Management

Document Duplication

Document Disposal

File Recognition Attachment

Incoming Message Screening

Message/Communications Delivery

Clerical Work

Translation:

1. Taga-type

2. Taga-file

3. Taga-photocopy

4. Taga-shred

5. Taga-sort ng mga papeles na tinambak at pagsasamahin ko yung files na magkakapareho, at i-staple yung mga nahiwalay na pages

6. Taga-sagot ng telepono

7. Taga-abot nga papeles sa kabilang department

8. Dagdag bullet lang para maraming ginagawa (in other words, all of the above)

Marami pang nakalagay sa activity report ko at magugulat kayo kung paano ko napahaba ng ganun yung report.

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So, I will miss yahoo briefcase. Thank you for the wonderful memories!